Sometimes you’re sitting on your bedroom floor with your teeth chattering so hard you’re convinced they’re going to break and fall out of your mouth so you find a blade under your mother’s bathroom sink and you drag it across your wrist until the numbness and hurt spills out of you onto the carpet. You don’t really realize how bad the scar will be. You don’t really see the impact of what you did until it’s the middle of july and you’re sweating through your long sleeve shirt and you’re wiping the wetness off your forehead and the tears are dripping onto your tongue and you finally see that it’s not going to go away. You really fucked yourself over. You can’t erase it.
Maybe that’s why I fell for you without a second thought
If I could put all my past lovers and every single person who’s ever hurt me in a room, I would run to you over and over again. If I had to pick someone to break my heart all the times they’ve dented mine, I would choose you to set it on fire and shatter it every time. I would choose you the moment I open my eyes and I would choose you when the alcohol is in my system. I choose you the moment the melatonin knocks me out and I choose you when I am lonely on a rainy day. I choose you when I am frustrated with a research paper and I choose you when I need to bawl over the death of my favorite characters. I will always choose you. And I will still choose you even when you don’t choose me.
Losing him was like hearing every goodbye ever said to me all at once.
You think ‘Okay, I get it, I’m prepared for the worst’, but you hold out that small hope, see, and that’s what fucks you up. That’s what kills you.
some people who are obsessed with food become gourmet chefs. others get eating disorders.
- Marya Hornbacher
Accept that pain is a normal part of life …
A relationship break up, the death of your pet, failing an exam, being hurt by a friend. It means that you are human and not a machine – but how do you cope with the hurt and the pain?
1. Endure it. There are some…